we think otherwise, you're wrong.
Its 3 days to a month since the last post.
The last post which wasn't really a post.
A post i never really planned for but i did.
I did let my feelings get the better of me and therefore.
And therefore, it didn't really go through my mind before posting.
Before posting, i'm right here thinking of my future.
My future that'd be decided in 5days time.
In 5days time, http://www.ns.sg/ will decide my posting.
My posting may or may not be what i want it to be.
What i want it to be may or may not be what SAF wants it to be.
SAF wants it to be the way They think its good for me.
For me, this block leave is as good as it can be.
It can be Command School, or being a man.
A Man, a trained soldier is what i am now.
What i am now is the result of 9weeks of military training.
9weeks of military training, from which i've learnt the minimal military knowledge.
The minimal military knowledge, which explains their motto of 'excel through basics'.
Excel through basics learnt during Basic Military Training.
Basic Military Training, as basic as it can be.
It can be as simple as singing a song in unison.
In unison, standardisation and regimentation.
Regimentation that one is never used to.
One is never used to waking at 0530,
At o530 i still have 80mins to sleep for the past 2 years of my life.
My life that i've spent living at 25 Dover Close East.
25 Dover Close East is what i miss most nowadays.
Nowadays there's absolutely no time for the supergym.
The supergym which seemed all so important to me.
Important to me is not the supergym.
The supergym may have been important to build those muscals.
Muscals which are now buried in the Tekong soil.
The Tekong soil, i can't compare to the air in Acjc.
In acjc, there's pardeep and edward, the guards.
The guards who kept me safe somehow when i stayed till late.
I stayed till late, till i missed my date.
My date too, is of course if you know me, now irrelevant.
Irrelevant, they say, are the results, as long as you give your best.
Your best, may be insufficient to clinch that vital goal or point.
That vital goal or point that may get you your final goal.
Your final goal, may be a gold.
A gold in ippt i've never ever achieved before.
Before typing this post i never thought i'd be writing these.
Writing these down as it comes along in my mind.
In my mind everything flows.
Everything flows at the rate that i myself am amazed at.
Amazed at my sense of humour, or the lack thereof, which may puzzle you
You do not fully understand me i feel.
I feel that i'm young and happy. i'll never die.
i'm skimming across the surface of my own history, moving fast, riding the melt beneath the blades, doing loops and spins, and when i take a high leap into the dark and come down 30years later, i realize its emoss trying to save emoss' life with a story.
A story in which i'm the main character.
The main character being forced to go on with life.
Being forced to go on with life is what we singaporean kids have to put up with.
Put up with this system we live in kids, we don't have much of a choice.
A choice to vote for parliament not a choice to me.
To me it should be whether everyone should be allowed to have a freedom of speech.
A freedom of speech, as ironic as it may sound, isin't free of charge.
Free of charge doesn't even come along during this Great Singapore Sale.
This Great Singapore Sale is proving to be somewhat great.
Great is my block leave now, great are the discounts.
Discounts which lead to greater consumer spending.
Greater consumer spending which will then trigger off the multiplier effect.
The multiplier effect will then cause the Singapore economy to prosper.
Prosper in the sense of a greater GDP or GNP, i think.
I think of higher incomes and better jobs, it isin't that far away.
Far away is my ORD date, 9th Feb 2009.
9th Feb 2009 seems really far away.
Away from the world, away from civilisation.
Civilisation which includes my family and friends.
My family and friends and of course, cookie monster.
Cookie monster, together with civilisation, will come back to me one day.
One day i'd be free from this.
This, myself included, have no idea what it exactly is.
What it exactly is, will be revealed to me slowly, in time.
In time, my future will be decided by the SAF.
The SAF may decide what they want me to do.
What they want me to do, is of course irrelevant.
Irrelevant is what others say about you.
You know you can be what you wanna be.
What you wanna be if you work hard at it.
Work hard at it as if you're just a normal boy.
A normal boy that sank when you fell overboard.
You fell overboard just like the time when I got knocked down.
I got knocked down, but i get up again.
I get up again and you're never going to keep me down.
thank you for reading this still.
The last post which wasn't really a post.
A post i never really planned for but i did.
I did let my feelings get the better of me and therefore.
And therefore, it didn't really go through my mind before posting.
Before posting, i'm right here thinking of my future.
My future that'd be decided in 5days time.
In 5days time, http://www.ns.sg/ will decide my posting.
My posting may or may not be what i want it to be.
What i want it to be may or may not be what SAF wants it to be.
SAF wants it to be the way They think its good for me.
For me, this block leave is as good as it can be.
It can be Command School, or being a man.
A Man, a trained soldier is what i am now.
What i am now is the result of 9weeks of military training.
9weeks of military training, from which i've learnt the minimal military knowledge.
The minimal military knowledge, which explains their motto of 'excel through basics'.
Excel through basics learnt during Basic Military Training.
Basic Military Training, as basic as it can be.
It can be as simple as singing a song in unison.
In unison, standardisation and regimentation.
Regimentation that one is never used to.
One is never used to waking at 0530,
At o530 i still have 80mins to sleep for the past 2 years of my life.
My life that i've spent living at 25 Dover Close East.
25 Dover Close East is what i miss most nowadays.
Nowadays there's absolutely no time for the supergym.
The supergym which seemed all so important to me.
Important to me is not the supergym.
The supergym may have been important to build those muscals.
Muscals which are now buried in the Tekong soil.
The Tekong soil, i can't compare to the air in Acjc.
In acjc, there's pardeep and edward, the guards.
The guards who kept me safe somehow when i stayed till late.
I stayed till late, till i missed my date.
My date too, is of course if you know me, now irrelevant.
Irrelevant, they say, are the results, as long as you give your best.
Your best, may be insufficient to clinch that vital goal or point.
That vital goal or point that may get you your final goal.
Your final goal, may be a gold.
A gold in ippt i've never ever achieved before.
Before typing this post i never thought i'd be writing these.
Writing these down as it comes along in my mind.
In my mind everything flows.
Everything flows at the rate that i myself am amazed at.
Amazed at my sense of humour, or the lack thereof, which may puzzle you
You do not fully understand me i feel.
I feel that i'm young and happy. i'll never die.
i'm skimming across the surface of my own history, moving fast, riding the melt beneath the blades, doing loops and spins, and when i take a high leap into the dark and come down 30years later, i realize its emoss trying to save emoss' life with a story.
A story in which i'm the main character.
The main character being forced to go on with life.
Being forced to go on with life is what we singaporean kids have to put up with.
Put up with this system we live in kids, we don't have much of a choice.
A choice to vote for parliament not a choice to me.
To me it should be whether everyone should be allowed to have a freedom of speech.
A freedom of speech, as ironic as it may sound, isin't free of charge.
Free of charge doesn't even come along during this Great Singapore Sale.
This Great Singapore Sale is proving to be somewhat great.
Great is my block leave now, great are the discounts.
Discounts which lead to greater consumer spending.
Greater consumer spending which will then trigger off the multiplier effect.
The multiplier effect will then cause the Singapore economy to prosper.
Prosper in the sense of a greater GDP or GNP, i think.
I think of higher incomes and better jobs, it isin't that far away.
Far away is my ORD date, 9th Feb 2009.
9th Feb 2009 seems really far away.
Away from the world, away from civilisation.
Civilisation which includes my family and friends.
My family and friends and of course, cookie monster.
Cookie monster, together with civilisation, will come back to me one day.
One day i'd be free from this.
This, myself included, have no idea what it exactly is.
What it exactly is, will be revealed to me slowly, in time.
In time, my future will be decided by the SAF.
The SAF may decide what they want me to do.
What they want me to do, is of course irrelevant.
Irrelevant is what others say about you.
You know you can be what you wanna be.
What you wanna be if you work hard at it.
Work hard at it as if you're just a normal boy.
A normal boy that sank when you fell overboard.
You fell overboard just like the time when I got knocked down.
I got knocked down, but i get up again.
I get up again and you're never going to keep me down.
thank you for reading this still.
posted by emoss at 8:36 PM
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