amazinglee chee

i'm currently thinking of re-applying for youny next year.
a course that will be new in any youny,
but is just as familiar as bart simpsons to anyone of you.

as you may or may not have realised,
its been more than a month since the last time the postman came by.
the duration between which, has been growing.

its not due to the lack of ideas, or brain stimulas to type out my words and thoughts.
they are, in fact interminable.

seeing things, as my vision allows me, to never fails to stimulate my mind.
things that make me evaluate whether it is blogworthy.
blogworthy not in the sense in which xuexia blogs,
blogworthy in the sense - being kokyichee-worthy.

friends are leaving.
friends are growing up.
friends are going back to school soon.
friends are learning that its not what you leave behind, but what you gain in the days ahead.

and very soon, friends will be gone.
it has already been showned, friends will be over in 10 seasons.

its largely inevitable, the fact that the people you know, the people you say hi to, the people you talk to, the people you spend time with, the people you play with, the people you laugh with, Will Change.

its not just the way they are.
its actually, the group of ppl you mix around with too.
life goes on, like a boat if u've heard it before.
it was only a year ago,
when people started to come and disturb my lone time and disrupt my peace in the vd on sundays.
when there was a constant lack of time with the impending prelims.

there was an end in mind.
a target to aim at.
an exam to prepare for.
PSG's dinner to look forward to at 0630hrs.
and in the end, a sense of achievement to be felt.
maybe you may argue, edward or pardeep to say bye to before you leave the gates of 25 Dover Close East.

it wasn't easy, nobody said it would be.
it isin't like other things you look back on thinking it was a piece of chicago cheese cake containing 1000calories to be consumed easily.
PSLE, Olevels, BMT... but not terms, promos, prelims and the A levels.

it is supposed to be fine and very much manageble,
afterall, its only advanced.
it is only a higher and more steeply placed stepping stone, placed at a more acute degree, before you carry on with the next, the youny of your choice.

due to the lack of engaging activities of late, it's easy to be caught up with the next steep step you're going to take.
all you see is the next step, the step after and it goes on.
you may say that that's the way life is, indeed it is true.
but you may be trying your best yet still failing to get up the next step.

the next step can be much easier than you think.
everything's in the mind.
the mind which decides how difficult the daunting step will be.
Impossible is Nothing.

The Best is Yet to Be.